Alicia Keys-Element of Freedom-Song #7

Have you ever had a continuous thought over and over and began to believe that it could be reality but are afraid of what others might say.  My life has consisted of me having these types of thoughts.  Anytime that I actually spend great deals of time thinking about something then I feel that it probably is rather important since I'm usually able to come to a conclusion on things rather fast. This situation has me torn.  Do you stay with what you have always known or do you go out on a limb for something unknown.

Whenever I have gone out on a limb into the unknown it usually has worked out well. I went to college without ever stepping foot on campus until the day I moved in and it ranks in the top of  "The Best Decisions that Olu has made". I admit sometimes people just do crazy things just to see what's going to happen, but I don't think this is one of those situations.  I've thought of my contingency plan if I truly decide to embark on this adventure in the life of Olu.

As always I use the lyrics from songs in my life and this particular song had many lyrics that described what I was feeling at the time. It was crazy how it just spoke to me. At times I have moments when songs speak to me. Jill Scott has done it many times and Drake always has a line that represents me to a tee.

Moment of honesty...
I'm gonna sit right here
And tell you all that comes to me
If you have something to say
You should say it right now

I was wondering maybe

Could I make you my baby
If we do the unthinkable would it make us look crazy
If you ask me I'm ready

Not sure where I'm going with this one but at least if I have it written it takes it out of my mind and provides me with a brief moment of clarity.

Can't sell me Bullshit...I Know the prices

After my recent trip after interactions with various people I realized that I enjoy compliments from whomever with the understanding that those comments are usually just to assist them in the selling of a product of for other devious endeavors.  I guess as long as I figure that I know their intentions then they truly aren't really getting over on me.  It's comical how people think that they are providing you with what they consider important information when in reality it's just bullshit. 


There a few things in life that I can't stand; liars and bs'ers.  The reason probably is because I feel that your word is your bond and neither one of those types of people word holds any weight.  It is refreshing when some is actually being "real".  I so hate the concept of being real because I don't know exactly what it's supposed to mean.  There are many instances when "being real goes wrong".  I think Dave Chappelles skit summarized it best.


I think when I first heard the title of this blog is was in a Jay-Z song.  Gradually as I listen to things over and over again I get a better understanding, or at least my understanding of what they should be, which is the most important thing.  As I sit here in the Cleveland airport listing to Rick Ross and trying to get myself mentally prepared for Miami I'm wondering how many times this phrase will pop into my mind this weekend.  A short and sweet writing before I take another nap to fix the fact that I landed at 3:30 am Cali time. Sigh.

Loyalty

The dictionary defines loyalty as, "the state or quality of being loyal; faithfulness to commitments or obligations".  As I think about the qualities that I feel are important in people I deal with: Honesty, respect, trust, and loyalty are what always comes to mind.  Without these things I think it is impossible to have a functional interaction whether it be a relationship or friendship. 

The things that I've mentioned aren't things that are developed overnight.  It may take years before those things can be successfully developed between individuals.  And it can only take a moment or act to tarnish any one of those things.  Your actions should be a direct reflection of these things.  I rather you show me than tell me since, "an action speaks louder than words" in the world of Olu.

Not enough people place as much weight as they should on the actions they do or the words that come out of their mouth.  In the end all you have is your word to support your character and unfortunately there are many people who's word means absolutely nothing to me. 

To be loyal to someone does not mean that you are completely submissive to them in any way, shape, or form.  In my mind it means that when stuff hits the fan that you'll be in the corner to support them or, if need be, call them out on their actions.  I'm abou tready to drop the mic and walk away, until next time.

Know your role and accept who you are

For awhile I think I've been denying who I am as opposed to accepting the person that I have grown up to be.  I like to shop, I like to travel, and I enjoy being outside of my house more than I enjoy being inside.  But for some reason when others mention those same things to me I try to deny those characteristics that describe me. 

Just as I should accept my role, I am learning to accept others for who they are.  People will show you who they are, you just have to be willing to listen to them and not make excuses for who they are.  I'm gradually realizing that certain personalities will not work with me being who I am.  I understand that they say that opposites attract but I can only accept a person being so far too the left of where I am. 

People need to know their role in your life. Some people are meant to be major players or even game changers, and some are just meant to be place-holders for the people who will have meaning to your life.  I think I'm tired of the place-holders. I do appreciate them for their time but as my mother told me this week " you need to up the stakes since you're not getting any younger".  I tell you words by Felicia are a great thing. You gotta love her truths and her views on life.

Since my summer session is beginning, and I think I'm coming down with a possible cold, I'll cut this one short so that I can rest and be ready for my 5 AM wakeup call. Swanky.

An Ode to N-City

So this is dedicated to my time down in National City this past weekend. I went down there to visit a friend, and to keep me entertained he decided to have me partake in the festivities of the town. National City is down by San Diego, and N-city was your classic hole-in-the wall.  We were definitely at the younger end of the age spectrum of the crowd that was in attendance.

The good thing about hole-in-the walls are the drinks and the DJ, not to mention the things that can be seen.  First of all, if you are wearing Coogi from head to toe, then you shouldn't be using an elastic band to keep your glasses on since you broke part of the frame and it's missing.  Also, I believe that everything is not meant for everybody, as far as clothing goes.  Spandex may have been created by the devil and there were some individuals who apparently sold their souls to him for that fabric. If my phone wasn't dead my facebook status updates would have been on fire.  I guess I wasn't meant to chronicle the night while it was happening.

I had a drink called 911.  Initially I was scared because of the name, but I've never met a drink that I couldn't handle.  Still don't know what was in this drink but it didn't have a strong liquor taste but definitely provided me with my happy juice that I needed.  911's made me have an appreciation for dancing in the 7-11 parking lot to loud music from cars.  After 2 of those drinks I wanted to pretend to be 21 to see what kind of fun or trouble I may get into. 

I use to have a few good hole in the walls near me that I would frequent.  I haven't done so in awhile and think I might need to bring that part of my life back.  Every time that I have been I have enjoyed myself due to the laid-back atmosphere, good drinks, and of course the patrons. During my travels in the next couple of months I shall be on a quest to find the hole-in-the wall spot that each city has to offer. Time for me to focus and do some reading until next week Monday.

I got a zest for life

I'm convinced that if I continue to go at the pace that I'm going that when I die I would have lived enough for two lifetimes.  My mother told me I need to slow down but all I can think about is "giving it gas, and no brakes".  I probably am trying to overcompensate for something that is lacking in my life.  If I felt like paying someone or actually talking about it maybe I could find out what it is.  But truth be told, I rather not.

I figure if I can continue to do the things that bring me happiness then that's all that matters, right??? It's worked for me thus far so I think I'll still keep on doing what I'm doing. Me doing what I'm doing sometimes means that I'll be doing it by myself, but when I think back on the peaks of my life a lot of those things were done by myself, so I feel right at home being solo dolo.

Besides, what it considered to be doing too much? Sometimes a person may feel as though they aren't doing enough.  It's all so subjective. In 2 Ways by Lupe Fiasco he summed it up for me:

All you see is all my flights
Well all I see is all my falls
All you see is all my rights
All I see is all my wrongs

I think I have officially gone off on a tangent that only I will understand...I apologize.  It's just a part of all the random thoughts that continuously fill my mind.  Since I've decided to actually focus on class while in class tonight, I guess I'll have to end now. See you next Monday.

The law of attraction

Some time ago I went to this business workshop where one of the speakers spoke about a vision board. I had heard of this before but had never created one of my own. Some people say that if you you write things down or put your actual visions down then you will be more likely to attain your goals.  Eventually, I went on to create my vision board and still have it up now because I'm still currently working on these goals. A friend heard about my vision board and proceeded to ask me if I had seen the Secret or read the book that the movie was based on.  The basic premise of the Secret is that the world is based on the law of attraction. Depending upon the energy you put out you can attract either positive or negative things to your life. 

When I was a senior in high school I wrote how I expected my life to be 10 years later in my senior memory book. I said I was going to either be an orthopedic surgeon or sports agent, live in a house, and have 2-3 kids by then.  Apparently, some of those things occurred, but the rest are yet to come.  If you can continuously think of something and keep it on the forefront of your mind, then I feel you might be more likely to continue working at it.  There are those people who always say bad things happen to them and they have bad luck; I don't believe they have bad luck I just believe that by them having those thoughts they attract bad things towards themselves.  If you can change your outlook, you can potentially change your world.  I'm currently trying to practice that, so I'll let you guys now how that goes.

1. I hate when people judge a book by it's cover.  Sometimes you should try to read a few pages of the book so that you can actually know what it is about. Some people think they have you all figured out when  actually their thoughts aren't even close when it comes to the person you are.

2. As opposed to complaining and saying what others aren't doing and things suck, how about you do something to make a change. I never complain about things that I myself am not willing to work towards changing.  Everyone has a lot to say but they aren't willing to put their money where their mouth is or actually do something to create a better situation. That irks me so much.

3. I finally gave in and watched the youtube dance videos by some chick named Ices. Apparently she is very popular and had 2.6 million views of her videos. She inspired me to buy my flip video camera...be on the look out for "Olu, up close and personal".

4. Is upset that J. Cole is performing on Rihannas tour. I refuse to buy a ticket and be subject to her performance. I saw it live once and I said never again. I guess Jermaine and I will have to wait until another time to meet up close and personal.

5. I think I'll start saving my rants and release them once a month just so I can release them from my system...That is all for now, I have television to watch and plans to make.